Ending Suicide For Good: Trigger Warning
It feels like there is a tornado in my mind, while everything around me is still.
The voices, they lie to me constantly.
“End your life. You’re not enough. Kill yourself. No one cares about you.”
Lies. Lies. Lies.
These lies take up space in my mind. Swirling round and round. Faster and faster.
It’s hard to think of anything else.
Will I end it?
No. Never. That’s what the voices want.
One time I asked the voices, why are you doing this to me?
Their reply was, I hate you.
They hate me because of the goodness inside of me. They want to end my life because my life belongs to Christ.
Not just that, but they want to end my life before I can manage to tell the others, that negative voice you hear in your mind, it isn’t you.
It’s the enemy of your soul and he is the one that wants you to end your life. Because your life is incredibly valuable. If only you would see that. If only you could believe that.
I will admit. I used to be afraid of him. But I’m withdrawing my fear now. As I write this.
